Treatment Day 1

I'm starting to blog again. I find it therapeutic at times and a good way for friends to check on what is going on without having to feel weird about calling and not knowing what to say sometimes. I also want to document how I feel. People always ask me how I feel and I always say fine, great, awesome or perfect. I'm not one to complain so this is where I can be a little more honest if I'm not perfect. I need to be a able to tell the doctors how I really feel so they can adjust treatment if necessary. These posts won't be as polished as before. I don't really have the time or drive to write, critique and re-write for fear of sounding stupid or uneducated. This will be raw Brian for a while.

Today is the first day of my colorectal cancer treatment. I have been diagnosed with a T3,N0,Mx Stage 2 cancer. It has been a long awaited 2 weeks for today to come. Part of me is scared like I've never been scared before and part of me is relieved that it starts today because the final treatment is one day closer.

First phase of radiation and chemo is everyday M-F for the next 5 weeks.

I just took the first 5 of my 10 daily Chemo pills. It is actually a very surreal feeling. I'm sitting hear waiting to feel side effects or glow in the dark which will probably be non-existent for at least several days if not weeks... the side effects part not the glowing the dark! :)

First Radiation treatment is today at 11am. Another milestone in my journey to beat this thing. Again I have lots of apprehension about the radiation but also relieved that it is finally here.

Enough talking and planning it is time to start killing this thing.

THANK YOU for all the kind words, offers of encouragement and support. I rest easier knowing that my friend network has now become a care network for my family.

Jake and Shelby seem to be handling everything well. Josh is having a hard time with this at night, especially when he is tired. Lots of daddy snuggle time and questions.

It was a great weekend. Met up with some friends from HS Friday night and Saturday. Football ALL day Sunday. Josh's team got killed but showed promise. Fished with the kids on Saturday afternoon and Sunday early evening and then watched the Bears with the Tovar's at the house.

Lot's on my mind this morning including one of our good friend's boys that is going in on Wednesday to have a lump removed from his neck. I pray it is nothing.


I feel good today.